I don't wish to love another, remember?

doa itu.

2010-12-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

Kata dia, dia doakan jodoh soleh untuk aku di Haram
Walaupun doa itu tiada dalam senarai yang aku beri.
Aku jadi tersentuh dengan tulusnya hingga hilang patah kata.
Kata dia, maaf dia pandai-pandai doakan untuk aku.
Dia gusar dengan aku yang seolah tiada perasaan.
Walhal aku simpan jiwa aku diam-diam untuk yang ‘halal’.
Aku balas, aku aminkan berjuta-juta-juta kali untuk doa itu.
Doanya sudah ada. Masanya dalam pengetahuan Dia.
Aku saja masih terkial-kial mensolehahkan diri.
Janji Dia, ‘dia’ datang sesuai dengan iman di hati.
Moga iman aku seteguh mereka yang terdahulu saat ‘dia’ hadir kelak.
Terima kasih untuk Dia yang membenarkan aku hidup lewat doa mereka, yang ikatan hatinya lebih kuat walau bertentang mata sekali cuma.

the right person, at the right time.

2010-11-19T01:22:00.000+08:00

If you love someone, ask him for nothing. Don’t hold him from his destiny. Don’t keep him from going off in search of his own answers. Don’t ask him for commitment. You will know commitment is real when it is something given willingly, and not as something obligatory. Don’t ask him for promises. If you are patient, if you have faith, you will know in your heart when the right time for promises has come. And when that time arrives, then you will see that you have both lost nothing by setting each other free, and have instead gained a richer, fuller life, a wealth of experiences, and a stronger certainty of your desires.

But should he not return to you, then life hasn’t cheated you because no promises were broken. Your bitterness will not last long, and you will feel thankful and blessed that at the very least, this beautiful soul has colored your life, that knowing him has already made life infinitely more meaningful.

By setting a person free, you run a risk of him not returning. But always remember that you found him beautiful precisely because he was free. People are like sunlight. You can feel their warmth, and their glow, but you can’t hold them in your hand and keep them with you forever. People choose to stay. But a choice is made more meaningful when it is made despite so many other options.

— Ala Paredes

I KNOW HOW TO ROAR!

2010-10-14T12:09:00.000+08:00

"Chin up. Put your shoulders back, walk proud, strut a little. Don’t lick your wounds: celebrate them. The scars you bear are the signs of a competitor. You’re in a lion fight. Just because you didn’t win doesn’t mean you don’t know how to roar."

ROAR!!

grrr

2010-10-14T02:24:00.000+08:00

m e n g an t u k

rotfl after reading this. laugh with me pls? HAHAH!

2010-10-12T18:21:00.002+08:00

Kepada Bf anak aku,

Peraturan 1: Kalo ko sampai kat pagar umah aku pastu dok hon…hon, pastikan ko bawak barang yang nak dihantar..sebab ko takkan ambik ape2 atau sesapa.

Peraturan 2: Jangan ko pegang2 anak aku depan atau belakang aku. Ko boleh pandang dia, selagi mata ko tak merayau lebih dari paras leher anak aku. Kalo ko takleh jaga tangan ko dari dok pegang2 anak aku..aku boleh tolong cabut dan jaga tangan ko kat umah..

Peraturan 3: Aku tau skang nih fesyen budak2 pakai seluar londeh sampai nampak boxer atau spender ko. Aku ni open-minded, so aku takkan suruh ko pakai seluar tu elok2 cam manusia normal. Tapi, bagi memastikan yang seluar ko takkan terbukak atau dibukak semasa ber’dating’ ngan anak aku, aku akan pakai stapler gun kat dalam laci aku nih untuk lekatkan seluar ko kat pinggang.

Peraturan 4: Aku rasa mesti ko tau pasal kempen seks ‘selamat’ yang omputih dok canang hari2 kat tv atau internet. Kalo tak pakai perlindungan cam kondom atau lain2, ko mungkin akan dapat penyakit yang mungkin membunuh ko satu hari nanti. Meh sini aku nak bagitau, kalo ngan anak aku ni, aku lah pelindung tuh..dan aku akan mendatangkan sakit kat tubuh badan ko dan kemungkinan besar akan bunuh ko jugak. Paham?

Peraturan 5: Biasalah kalo ko nak berkenalan lebih baik ngan aku ni sebagai calon bapak mertua ko..ko nak berbual pasal politik, pasal sukan atau lain2 topik semasa. Aku takmo dengar semua tuh. Satu jer topik yang aku minat nak dengar: bila ko nak antar anak aku balik ke umah ni semula? Dan jawapan yang aku nak dengar cuma: “Awal.”

Peraturan 6: Aku rasa ko ni hensem, popular kat kolej/pejabat ko, banyak peluang nak dating ngan aweks2 lain yang lagi kiut-miut..aku takde hal ngan kelebihan ko tu..selagi anak aku pon ok dengan kepopularan ko. Tapi, sekali ko dah couple ngan anak aku, ko jangan pandai2 cari pompuan lain sampai la anak aku dah bosan ngan ko atau dia break-off ngan ko. Kalo ko wat anak aku nangis, aku pulak akan wat ko nangis.

Peraturan 7: Sementara ko menunggu anak aku bersiap, jangan dok mengeluh kalo dia bersiap lama sangat. Kalo ko nak orang yang punctual, ko leh dating ngan mat askar. Kalo ko bosan menunggu kat luar tu, tolong le wat ape yang patut, cam basuh keta aku atau cat pagar umah aku ni.

Peraturan 8: Tempat2 berikut adalah dilarang sama sekali korang pergi dating; tempat yang ada katil, ada sofa, ada rumput atau apa2 tempat yang leh duduk2 atau baring2. tempat2 yang takde kehadiran orang tua, polis, tok imam. Tempat2 yang gelap. Tempat2 yang membolehkan korang berpegang tangan/menari atau bersukaria. Tempat2 yang panas sampai membuatkan anak aku terpaksa pakai tshirt takde lengan..pakai short skirt. Tempat yang sejuk sampai ko kena panaskan badan anak aku. Movie yang romantic, berunsurkan cium2 tu elakkan. Movie pasal seksa kubur atau hari kiamat dibolehkan.

Peraturan 9: Jangan sekali-kali menipu aku. Aku ni nampak jer perut buncit, kepala hampir botak, tapi aku akan tau semua pergerakan ko dari spy2 aku. Kalo aku tanya ko nak pegi mana, dengan sapa lagi yang join ngan korang, ko ada satu peluang jer nak jawab dengan benar, tiada yang tak benar melainkan benar belaka. Aku ada satu senapang patah, satu cangkul dan lima ekar tanah yang penuh hutan kat belakang umah aku ni. Selalunya aku dok menembak khinzir kat situ. Kalo aku tembak kepala ko kat belakang tu, takde sapa yang nak tanye. Jangan main2 ngan aku.

Peraturan 10: Ko patut takut ngan aku ni..kalo boleh biar sampai sangat2 takut. Aku ni dok teringat2 lagi peristiwa bukit kepong. Sampai skang kalo ada orang datang umah senyap2 pastu dok berbual kat laman aku nak tembak..aku ingatkan komunis. Nanti dah abih dating, sampai kat pintu pagar, bukak pintu kereta dan angkat dua2 tangan ko tinggi2. Cakap dengan jelas “saya datang antar anak pakcik”. Pastu terus blah. Tak payah masuk minum teh. Kilauan matahari yang ko nampak kat tingkap umah aku ni ialah teropong senapang sniper aku.

Sekian, Yg ditakuti, Bapak Kepada Gf ko.

jangan pernah berhenti sebelum masanya

2010-10-07T13:15:00.000+08:00

" Teruslah bergerak, hingga kelelahan itu lelah mengikutimu.
Teruslah berlari, hingga kebosanan itu bosan mengejarmu.
Teruslah berjalan, hingga keletihan itu letih bersamamu.
Teruslah bertahan, hingga kefuturan itu futur menyertaimu.
Tetaplah berjaga, hingga kelesuan itu lesu menemanimu.”

-ustaz rahmat abdullah

pengajaran

2010-10-04T18:34:00.002+08:00

Yang diharap penuh itu separuh,
yang diharap sempurna itu cacat,
selalu.
Dan aku belajar, redha itu lebih tinggi dari sabar

lemah bila dengannya.

2010-10-04T18:19:00.001+08:00

Matahari kalah terang dengan hatinya,
Bulan kalah indah dengan senyumannya,
Air kalah jernih dengan jiwanya,
Bumi kalah subur dengan amalnya,
Langit kalah cerah dengan akhlaknya,
Batu kalah keras dengan imannya,
Dan aku pun kalah hati kepadanya…

dia yang bermastautin dihati.

2010-10-01T16:15:00.001+08:00

'awk. sy nk try tgl tmpt lain'
'tgl mana plak?'
'sy nk tgl dkat hati awk. boleh?'

awww. awk tahu tk, awk dh tgl pon dkat hati saya tanpa awk sedar. :)

oh my clumsy heart.

2010-09-15T04:03:00.000+08:00

dear heart,
Lately you’ve been beating faster, sometimes to the point were I can’t breathe. But I vow not to act on you anymore. Because you are selfish, you are indecisive, you have no idea what you really want. You are so effing superficial, it makes me sick.

I refuse to listen to you because you have so much capability to hurt me and others.

pemilik cinta selepas Allah dan rasul.

2010-09-15T03:29:00.001+08:00

Kalau suka, jumpalah ibu bapa. Sayangnya, tiada yg brani, tanda tk bersedia. Kalau tk sedia,knpa nk bercinta? Bukankah itu pintu zina semata-mata?

kenapa masih tidak faham?

2010-09-13T03:01:00.000+08:00

urat nadi pon tahu aku hampa.

dia yang perlukan perhatian.

2010-09-09T03:24:00.000+08:00

Sesetengah orang sanggup melakukan apa saja perkara untuk mendapatkan perhatian. Liarnya hingga sampai jadi ketagihan, yang perlahan-lahan tanpa disedari bertukar menjadi keperluan dalam hidup seharian. Mahu saja aku kasihani orang-orang sebegini. Terjerat dengan muslihat sendiri. Tetapi jika dikasihanipun, ia tidak mampu untuk mengubah keadaan, malah mana mungkin mengendurkan tabiat buruk yang sudah sebati dalam badan.

destinasi cinta.

2010-09-08T03:07:00.000+08:00

Dan entah bila, tasyahudku bergetar. Perlahan-lahan kotak jiwa dihenyak rasa sebak - terasa hangatnya rindu. Cinta pun hadir semakin membara-bara. Bertuturlah ia menyebut satu nama. Semoga tidak terpadam sehingga akhir hayat. Selamanya cintaku hanya untuk-Mu. Semoga tetaplah aku di jalan-Mu, ya Allah. Cukup satu waktu untuk satu cinta.

mereka tak mengerti. takkan pernah.

2010-09-04T04:55:00.001+08:00

mereka pelik mengapa kau jadi pilihan
mereke mempersoalkan kekuranganmu
mereke mempertikaikan apa ada padamu
mereka panggil aku gila, aku panggil itu sayang
mau apa lagi mereka?

=((

2010-08-31T04:09:00.001+08:00

Everything Allah chooses for you; from good or evil, is for your benefit. Whatever occurred to you could not have missed you. And what missed you could never have reached you.

why am I crying??!!
stop crying pls….Allah knows u’ve tried.
keep trying okay

ya rab

2010-08-31T04:02:00.001+08:00

"jangan dipinta ringankan ujian…
pintalah beratnya iman untuk menghadapi ujian."

SHOOH!

2010-08-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

you're making me all confuse again.
the feeling that i've put aside is slowly creeping in again.
gahhhh. GO AWAY and dont make me soo confuse again.
okayy.
i shall go bang my head against the wall now.at least it's something.
BLEAHHHSS.

indah benar ciptaanNYA

2010-08-30T17:49:00.002+08:00

Saat mata bersapaan dan senyum saling menghantar isyarat kemesraan.
Subhanallah.
kacaknya.
kacak.
Sungguh.
Penciptaan-Nya tiada cacat cela.
malaikatkah ini? Subhanallah.
Tidak salahkan sekadar memuji?
Dan lagi. Subhanallah.

bukankah dengan mengingati Allah jiwa kan menjadi tenang?

2010-08-30T17:48:00.002+08:00

Menanti sebuah malam.

Menanti atau mencari dan memburunya?

Lailatul Qadar adalah malam yang pasti datang. Jika menantinya itu hanya dengan sekadar berjaga malam, maka orang-orang yang bersekang mata tanpa berbuat apa-apa itulah yang beruntung dilintas kehadiran malam itu. Sesungguhnya ia bukan malam penantian, tetapi malam pemburuan dan pencarian.

2010-08-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

I can make it through the rain I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I'll make it through the rain

I can do this.
Come on khadijah bashir, you can do this.

Yang maha mengehtahui

2010-08-15T07:20:00.000+08:00

Dan rahasiakanlah perkataanmu atau lahirkanlah; sesungguhnya Dia Maha Mengetahui segala isi hati. (67:13)

insya Allah

2010-08-15T07:18:00.001+08:00

Hey lady, stand firm!

agar indah dalam pandanganNYA

2010-08-15T07:02:00.001+08:00

Kesetiaan padanya yang telah Allah tuliskan namamu dan namanya di lauhul mahfuz jauh sebelum bumi dan langit tercipta. Maka cintailah dalam hening agar jika memang bukan dia yang ditakdirkan untukmu, maka cukuplah Allah dan kau yang tahu segala rasamu.. Agar kesucianmu tetap terjaga, keanggunannya tetap terbias, cinta hanya butuh kau kendalikan, hanya cukup kau arahkan, sabar dan percaya maka peganglah kendali hatimu lalu arahkan padaNya dan cintailah dalam diam, itu jauh lebih indah jauh lebih suci.

tak lengkap tanpa meraka

2010-08-14T02:04:00.001+08:00

saya tak tahu mcm mana hidup saya dkat University Malaya

tanpa mereka.

it is

2010-08-01T19:25:00.000+08:00

Its all about looking for each other and restraining.

Its all about wondering and confirming.

Its all about the joys within the pain.

Its all about the feeling and the fighting.

Its all about giving up and letting go.

Its all about cries and laughters.

Its all about hoping and waiting.

Its all about stopping and losing.

Its all about wants and have tos.

Its all about what is inside and outside.

Its all about determinations and achievements.

Its all about time and conditions.

Its all about ‘i dont care’ and ‘i miss you’.

Its all about rights and wrongs.

Its all about lives.

Its all about me and you.

Yes.

Its all about us.

Us.

What am I suppose to do then?

Allah, make the ways clear please….

:(

2010-07-18T20:31:00.001+08:00

Life would be so much simpler if things stay the way it is,dont you think so?

hopeless.

2010-07-14T17:19:00.000+08:00

you know what would really do justice to me right now…?

to stay home and do nothing but stone and think about myself.

i think i have been running around too much, chasing after things, running after deadlines and everything else except for myself. the only time i get to think about the day is the time before i get to sleep.

and there are times that i will just fall asleep before even having a closure to that session.

so really, given a chance, i would pause time. let my own time and think about the things that i left at the far corner of my mind. i want to bring them all out, get it sort, be firm and strong and then the time can start running again.

asking for too much? i think so too. but that how i feel.

theres just to many things to do. too many improvements to be made. so many things to try out. too many achievements and goals to strive for. but at the end of the day, with betterment of self, all of this can be achieved, no?

why struggle?

2010-07-07T04:32:00.000+08:00

Thank you for making me struggle
Thank you for making me cry,
Thank you for making me feel the pain.
Thank you Allah for that;
because now I know how to be happy,
Now I know the difference, now I know how to be grateful.
Without life’s complications, you wont know its simplicity.
Without life’s sadness, you wont know happiness.
Without Allah, you would never learnt this.
Thank you Allah.

bila hati terpaut

2010-06-30T01:26:00.001+08:00

takkan habis ku berdoa menjadi kekasih halal buatnya.

i'm shy

2010-06-30T01:21:00.001+08:00

just because i dont say anything doesnt mean i dont like you.

ujian paling hebat

2010-06-28T15:27:00.001+08:00

Di ketika orang menyanjung hingga kaki tidak terasa menjejak bumi dan kekurangan pun bagai tidak ternampakkan lagi, di ketika itulah kiranya kau sedang diuji hebat oleh Dia.

G TDO LH NUR!

2010-06-28T03:17:00.002+08:00

NURHUDA says:
Hi
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
NURRR
TDOLH!
NUR GILER EH
NURHUDA says:
Nur da rase
De dtg
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
de sape?
NURHUDA says:
Sikit lg rase
Nur rase. Ok nu betol2 rase
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ape nur!!
NURHUDA says:
Nur da rase.
Nur da rase ngantok!
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
bgs
tdo!
bye
NURHUDA says:
Tbe2 lenyap rase ni.

esk nurhuda skola! dh pkl 4 pg blm tdo! perangai sapa dia ikut pon tak tawu. pastu bole mepek ckp rasa ni dh lenyap!

kisah nur takkan habis.

2010-06-28T02:29:00.001+08:00

msg from nur,

"kak! masuk bilik nur. nur nk ipod kakak"
" kakak malas nk turun dari katil"
"alaa. tkyh turun dari katil, dtg je cni nan katil2 kakak"

WAKLU! SUKE MEREPEK BDK NIE!

ya Rab, ya Latif.

2010-06-27T01:21:00.000+08:00

Riak di wajah membias tenang
hati di dalam hebat bergoncang.

Wahai kalbu, tetapkan aku.
Memandu laku ke jalan itu.

Wahai Tuhan, berkati aku.
Tidak khilaf jalan pilihku.

Tanggal itu semakin hampir.
Wahai tenang segeralah mampir.

i dont wish to continue. HOHO!

2010-06-02T00:14:00.001+08:00

stick around a liltle longer, will you?

2010-05-25T01:18:00.001+08:00

Nurfarahin says:
u know what djah
its nice to know how some things never change,
like the way we can laugh and joke like this
(:

demi Tuhan, hati ini hancur.

2010-05-23T02:26:00.003+08:00

pertemuan singkat tadi bagai satu sentakkan
saling berpandangan,
renungan mata kami bukan pandangan biasa
pandangan yang tersimpan seribu rahsia
pandangan yang mana antara kami tahu ada hati kecewa
singkat. tidak lebih sepuluh saat.
tapi hati hancur lebih dari seribu retakan.

credits to farahin. ;)

2010-05-15T03:03:00.000+08:00

I don’t like somebody. Is it the same as confessing I like somebody? Well that’s not the point. The point is, this person has irritated me for a long time. And only recently, I began to feel something worse than just annoyance towards this person. Anger. Yes, anger. Hate? No, I couldn’t and I can’t bring myself to hate this person. Maybe just dislike. No, it’s not mutual dislike. This person is aware of my dislike, but does not return the feeling.

Which makes me feel all the more worse.

This person is always throwing herself into sticky situations, when she already knows that she’s going to get hurt. And when she’s stuck, she’ll turn to me for help. Hurriedly I will do whatever to help her. She is proud and yearns to be independent, when all she ever wants in reality is complete dependence on me. She cares too much but never wants to admit it. That irks me like hell. She’s full of herself - oh yes she is - but when it comes to the time she really needs to feel good about herself, she has zero confidence.

She says things without thinking, easily jumps from one boat to the other and never thinks of the consequences (e.g: she might fall into the sea and drown, God I can’t understand why it has never seemed to occur to her how dangerous it is), and she’s rude, rash and full of crap. Oh, I do believe she knows it’s emotionally unhealthy to prance about so much, but she just doesn’t think. Won’t you get annoyed by somebody who’s supposed to be smart and thoughtful but acts stupid most of the time? You have to be a saint not to. Sometimes I begin to wonder if she’s as smart as she appears to be. Maybe she’s dumb. Just plain that: dumb.

And the worst part, I can’t get rid of her. No matter what I do. It’s like I’m attached to her or something. The most that I can do is grab a glass bottle and smash the mirror in front of me, because every time I look at the mirror, she’s there staring right back

sorry for all damage. =(

2010-05-14T03:18:00.000+08:00

Sometimes there’s nothing to say. Sometimes silence expresses more than words. Picking up the phone, dialing a number, it can do more damage than good. But humans are afflicted with this obsessive desire to talk things to death. So we make things worse, just by trying to make it better.

=(((

2010-05-14T02:40:00.003+08:00

- nurathifah says:
btw
ko hepi?
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
hepi dgn ape?
- nurathifah says:
hidup
skrg ni
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
bolehlh. ada ms hepi ada tk. cume tk sehepi time sec and preu
rs zaman tu mcm plg hepi.
mcm mslh pon remeh2 je
- nurathifah says:
huhu samelaa
preu 2 aku plg best..
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
farin pon ckp benda yg sama
de kate zaman skola plg best
rs mcm sume mslh ada jalan keluar
tp skrg .. mcm lambat jalan keluar
- nurathifah says:
hehe kdg2 tkde jalan klua langsung punn..
klw ade pn yg tk smpi destinasi~
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ms berubah eh. kte pon berubah.
- nurathifah says:
hehe perasaan syg aku je yg tk berubah
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
sama disini.

Everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could just freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come. Whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. The world would stop turning & people would stop changing, because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.

adapted.

2010-05-12T03:10:00.001+08:00

When we were little, life worked perfectly. No matter what happened, everything turned out alright in the end. Scraped knees, cancelled play dates, dropped ice cream cones. We would cry for a short time, but by the end of the day, everything would be perfect. And now as we’ve grown older, we’ve lost the faith as we stumble through each day, crying over broken hearts, lost friendships, and lost dreams. It seems like life and perfection have turned their backs on us, but really its just that we’ve grown up. As children we didn’t pay attention to such details about our daily lives, but now we are more aware and little details seem to be amplifying our pain. But just remember that when we were younger, life was hard too, but we had faith in perfection because we could look past faults. So don’t lose your faith. Learn to know that each day will pass, each heartache will be mended, and everything will be perfect in the end. Just keep your faith.

via : http://obliteratedheart.tumblr.com/

spot me!

2010-05-12T03:03:00.002+08:00

cube spot aku mana!

thanks eh captured gmbr aku tgh lari

sbb mati2 nk masuk dlm gmbr.

skali dh petik. -___-

gmbr ini mendatangkn kemarahan aku!

tolong jangan campak kerusi dkat aku eh. =P

2010-05-12T02:50:00.000+08:00

sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
aku cumee rs aku dh tk popular je
ahaha! aku tk popular dkat sgpaore lg!! =(( popular dkat msia je
- nurathifah says:
abe sape yg popular
KO MASIH POPULAR LA KALANGAN KTRNG
tu paleng penting
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ahahaha!! yay! aku popular!!

thanks to Hamba Allah

2010-05-01T15:37:00.001+08:00

Jika kamu memancing ikan.....
Setelah ikan itu terikat di mata kail,
hendaklah kamu mengambil
Ikan itu.....
Janganlah sesekali kamu lepaskan ia... See More
semula ke dalam air begitu saja....
Karena ia akan sakit oleh karena
bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu dan
mungkin ia akan menderita selagi ia
masih hidup.

Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi
banyak pengharapan kepada
seseorang... .
Setelah ia mulai menyayangimu
hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya.....
Janganlah sesekali kamu
meninggalkannya begitu saja......
Karena ia akan terluka oleh kenangan
bersamamu dan mungkin tidak dapat
melupakan segalanya selagi dia
mengingat... ..

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,
jangan terlalu mengharap pada
takungannya dan janganlah menganggap
ia begitu teguh......cukuplah sekadar
keperluanmu. ......
Apabila sekali ia retak......tentu
sukar untuk kamu menambalnya
semula......
Akhirnya ia dibuang..... .
Sedangkan jika kamu coba
memperbaikinya mungkin ia masih dapat
dipergunakan lagi.....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki
seseorang, terimalah seadanya.... .
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya
dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya
Begitu istimewa.... .
Anggaplah ia manusia biasa.
Apabila sekali ia melakukan kesilapan
bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk
menerimanya. ....akhirnya kamu kecewa
dan meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu memaafkannya boleh
jadi hubungan kamu akan terus
Hingga ke akhirnya.... .

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan
nasi.....yang pasti baik untuk dirimu.
Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu berlengah, coba mencari
makanan yang lain....
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelezatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu
tidak boleh memakannya. kamu akan
menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu
dengan seorang insan....yang membawa
kebaikan kepada dirimu. Menyayangimu.
Mengasihimu. Mengapa kamu berlengah,
coba bandingkannya dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.
Kelak, kamu akan kehilangannya;
apabila dia menjadi milik orang Lain
kamu juga akan menyesal.

cursed

2010-04-27T02:21:00.001+08:00

I told you once, long ago, that I would always love you. I think I cursed myself for life.

kecoh bila blacky dah selamat melahirkan.

2010-04-27T02:02:00.003+08:00

%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
blacky dh beranak tao!
* Roziyana * says:
bia btoooooooooooll ?? amek gmbaaaaaaaa
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
aku nk bedek bwatpe!
* Roziyana * says:
anak die color appee??bile besalin?
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
mana aku ada camera biadap!!
* Roziyana * says:
ko tgkk??
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tgklh! anak 1st de aku sambut
* Roziyana * says:
lerr ! pkai laa hp koooo
ktne die besalinn? bape eko??
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
KAU ASL! HP AKU ADA CAMERANYE! 4 ekor anaknye
* Roziyana * says:
aku bersimpati... maaf ye.

de beranak dkat ne?
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
dkat block kte juga. dlm kotak ugh
* Roziyana * says:
kotak mane? jgn kotak akuu ehh!!!
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
bknlh! eh byknye tanye! balik cptlh!!
* Roziyana * says:
aku nk tauu anak die ikt muke sape
mak ke bpk?
ko da tgk scare liveee ke branak??
anak2 die pn ko da tgk ke?
oiitt
jwb laaaaaaaaaaaaa

* Roziyana * just sent you a nudge.

%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
mampos!!! sabarlh!! aahlh
aku tgk real and live!
* Roziyana * says:
k2.. ko critekn kt ak dr A-Z
aku dgr, cpt citeeeeeeeeee kn!
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
de beranak smlm maghrib
4 ekor sume.
and rmi2 dtg ziarah. pas satu org satu org
ada dtg bwk buahtangan. kasi tuna lh apelh
* Roziyana * says:
ouh
kt bilek mane bersalin?
suami die pn ade ke?
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
de kn dirogol! mana ada perogol yg bertanggungjwb!!
* Roziyana * says:
ouhk2
aku rase sylvster tkde niat ah nk rogol
mcm blacky je tergedik2 ku tgk
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
kemain lg kau tawu ape niat kucing!

tk sabar nk alek.

2010-04-26T17:57:00.003+08:00

"aku jejak kaki dkat singapore je kan mel, 1st thing aku nk bwt is..... cube teka!"

"cium tanah?"

CIUM TANAH KO!! ahahah. aku tawulh aku dh 2bulan lbh tk alek. tp tkdlh smpi tahap aku nk cium taanah! aku nk visit anak sedare kamulh nurkamaliah. ;)

blacky is back!

2010-04-14T02:30:00.003+08:00

aku peduli ape org bc ke tk blog aku, aku tetap nk update. ( peduli ckit ugh. korg bc pls? ahaha)

smlm petang saat aku tgh qailullah, dtg fathimah kejut suruh bgn
"awk! blacky wk. sian de. meow2. blm makan. bgn wk kte g beli makanan de"

aku sumpah nantok! aku pon nan muke malas nk layan ckp,
"awk g tgk dkat kedai runcit kolej kte ada ke tk mknn kucing. klw tk kasi je de ayam"

fathima mati2 nk belikn friskies! de kate jimat duit. ayam dh naik harga gaknye! and plg menyedihkn runcit kolej kte tk jual Friskies ke Purina. fathima pon amek jubah aku suruh aku sarung temaknkn de g kedai runcit dkat kolej lain.

wahsey~ aku pon bgn. sarung ala kadar, tudung tk lupe pakai. terus kuar.

sampai kedaii runcit kolej 12 yg tkdlh besar mana, aku terus tanye abg kedai,

"abg! ada jual makanan kucing tk?"

dgn selamba badak abg jwb,

"makanan kucing abg tk jual, mkanan student abg jual!"

WAH AKU MCM NK JERIT KUAT2 SMPI ABG TUTUP KEDAI! ku dh bgn dr tdo nih tao tkd mknan kucing! atlast aku fed up aku beli berus gigi. no link ugh. tp atleast aku dtg tk sia2. aku beli something juga.

balik dari kolej, belikn crabstick. kasi blacky setengah. lg setengah aku makan. ahaha. k tu je nk cyter. bye.

=P

2010-04-07T17:01:00.001+08:00

it got me pondering, somehow.

k aku dh stat mentel.

dont mind me.

it’s about you, it’s always about you.

2010-04-01T01:00:00.005+08:00

We can’t waste too much time missing something or someone from the past. We accept that life’s never constant; things change and people grow apart. Yet we can’t stop thinking about how good it used to be; afraid that we’d never experience it again, afraid that we’ve already lived it and lost it.

Are there certain people in our lives whom we’re never meant to get over?

2010-03-30T12:39:00.001+08:00

Dekat tapi berjauhan
Demikian kenyataan
Ada garisan memisahkan

Bertemu tanpa bicara
Bicara tiada senada
Satu seksaan yang mendera jiwa rasa

=(

2010-03-29T00:10:00.002+08:00

Ya Rab, satukan semula hati kami sebagaimana Kau pernah menyatukannya dahulu.
sungguh aku rindu pada masa lalu.

cats are harmless. erk?

2010-03-27T16:43:00.002+08:00

tgh cuba jinak2kn diri dengan tatap gmbr2 kucing.

dengan pegang kucing dengan tangan sndr.

asas pengajian keusahawanan

2010-03-25T16:09:00.002+08:00

hari keusahahwanan sangt memenatkan dan

melemahkan semua otot2 yang ada dibadan

tp 'ala kulli hal, we had fun!

tgk tu aku ketawa smpi npk sume gigi.

soo buruk! -____-

lagak bak primadona.

2010-03-21T01:55:00.002+08:00

Dia ratunovela
Gaya hidup si drama mama
Cerita ceritanya saja
Mana mana
Lenggang lenggok bak primadona
Posing maut bertahta tiara
Gincu tebal merah menyala
Itu dia si
Ratunovela!

Kawan kawan langkah seribu
Semua dah tak sebulu
Sebab takut denggan gelagat yang tak menentu
Kata orang engkau tak setuju

engkau anggap itu merapu
Engkau bagai si luncai terjun dengan labu

Minah superstar lagak bak peragawati
Ratu novella meletup segala ciri ciri
Hidup pasti tinggi ulu mari paling asli
Cari kawan handal untuk senang jadi terkenal
Make up kena tebal lagaknya tak boleh diramal
Tak kisah menumpang kadang kadang bagaikan parasit

future soulmate

2010-03-20T20:32:00.001+08:00

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your hearts longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life’s betrayals, or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true, I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.

I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it is not pretty every day, and if you can source your life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours or mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!”

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you are, or how you came to be here- I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

- The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer, Indian Elder

precious

2010-03-17T09:55:00.002+08:00

ape khabar adik2 kakak?

khabar baik mcm kakak ke?

rindu korg. ;)

jaga diri. doakan kak ijah k.

muah

relieved,

2010-03-17T09:41:00.000+08:00

the time away from each other was good.
maybe,it’s better that way.
you think so too?

lets sit and talk

2010-03-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

The scariest moment is always just before you start. After that, things can only get better.

pandai eh kau pujuk aku,haah!

2010-03-11T22:22:00.002+08:00

Starting a Video Call with nazo_namlun@hotmail.com ...
End call (Alt+Q)

%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tk sudi nk tatap wajah manis aku ke!!
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
sudi sudi
tapy mmg takle k0l
kau pat msie
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ko g accept
jgn lupe pki baju!
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
accept ape
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
webcam lhh
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
aku ebuddy la
tak mcm kau , lappy gerl
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
abe kiree tk dpt webcam grr
bye
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
marah agy
ahahaha
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
benci
saat aku perlukn ko. ko tkde
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
bilang in advance ahk
jady ley ku gy tmpt webcam
jgn ah gini
wlwpn kte tk nampak visually , aku nampak kau pat aty ku nie
jgn sad2 k

SUKA MAIN2KN PERASAAN ORG EH!

2010-03-09T13:35:00.004+08:00

ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
salam djah...
niari dae kelas tk intro??
ade kn?
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tkddd!!
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
sape kate??
dah call teacher ke??
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
zhiang kate. and tchr pon katee
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
ler...Zhiang kate buat ape...
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tchr pon ada mention
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
tpi hari last fri ktrng jumpe teacher...die tk ckp ape2 plak...
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
eh? alamak! kire ada class ke??
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
juz want to check...
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
jgn blg ada ughh
dh set mind tkd
susah nk set alek da
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
hauhauhha....
kelas adaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
hauhauhuahhauh
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
btol? kire kena siap ugh ni?
dh tknk g!!
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
krg ah....
sapa suruh set siang2....
ahakz...
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
errr
abe how? btol2lh! ade ke tk!!
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
wan dah call...teacher kate ade kelas..!!
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ada? k bye. tknk tawu!!
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
pe je la krng nie...
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ape djah lak!!
kn tchr kate tkd lst wk! tchr ni tk siqoh lh!!
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
tu teacher lain la.....
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tchr nie!! mane ada tchr lain
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
khofifful hifz...msih blh diterima...
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tk siqoh! rejected. syahid blajakn utk djah k? thanks
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
malas!!!
klw krng tk gi....ktrg pun tk la..
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ckp org!! pon sama. apelh tk istiqamah!
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
oits.....plajar quran n sunnah kene istiqomah ok...
hahah!
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
klw istiqomah baik pergi!
djah tk g. malas!
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:

djah...nk gi kelas tak???
low ade kereta..nk join??
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
syahid g?
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
gi la....
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
k djah tk g.

dh ada wakil dh g. ahah korg g k! ape ilmu korg dpt tu nnt pass dkat djah
djah tkley. mind once dh set badan ssh nk gerak
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
abe law gitu sape2 yg gi??
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tk tawu. nad mcm tk. shidah and wani enth eh
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
pe la krng nie! tk sporting langsung.!
mmg tkde kelas la!!!
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
SYAHID!!!!!!!!!! MAIN2KN PERASAAN ORG SAE.
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
hahahahk!!
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
KURG ASAM!!
klw djah siap td cmne?AHAHAHA
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
releks la djah...tkkn marah. hee
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
hahaha. tklh. lega
atleast tkyh rs bsAlah klw tk dtg
ZiLdJiAn-Z.i.g.g.e.n.s- says:
hee...tula..lain kali jgn set mind siang sgt...
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tchr yg blg last wk class cancl, jd djah set mind siang2 ugh

pasni djah ada class pkl 6.haissh!
mntk2 lh class batal! aminkn pls?

been distancing myself from you lately

2010-03-09T12:12:00.001+08:00

I dont care whatever u like or u dislike n whatever u said

bcause u've talked extremely a lot.

I'll probably scream at your face if you piss me off, I swear!!

aku tak buta dalam menilai

2010-03-08T19:12:00.005+08:00

aku ingin kau tahu
aku tk sempurna
jangan terlalu menaruh harapan
yang aku akan menatang kau bagai minyak yang penuh
kerana adakalanya aku akan menjadi manusia yang paling sadis
melukakan hati membuat kau menangis
dimasa yang lain aku akan selalu berada disampingmu
menghulurkan tangan untuk kau berpaut
saat kau perlu teman bicara,
bukankah aku ada bersamamu?
cuba semampu aku membuat kau rasa didengari
lantas apa yang membuat kau fikir aku begitu bersikap 'keakuan' ?
aku bukan mahu jadi mereka yang digelar 'lidah bercabang dua'

aku jujur dalam hubungan

cuma adakalanya aku tidak boleh terlalu jujur

kerana aku ingin menjaga hatimu yang setipis kaca

demi menjaga hati dan jalinan,

layakkah diri dilabel hipokrit?

jangan hanya kerana satu kesalahan

kau tutup mata dari melihat seribu kebaikkan

aku buntu,

mahu apa lagi kau?

hope

2010-03-08T18:15:00.002+08:00

im just hoping that time will not turn us into strangers.

that’s not too much to ask for right?

tweet tweet.

2010-03-08T03:19:00.002+08:00

%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
fis bwat twitter ugh
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
tak abes2
best sgt ke
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
best
pls? utk aku.
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
k k utk kau aku bwat.
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
yay!!
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
ape kegunaannye
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
update status
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
status ape
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ape2
mcm kau tgh mkn
tgh kasi kucing mkn
tgh blablabla
sume ugh
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
ape beze nan fb
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
fb mcm update sal jiwang2 ugh , mcm serious ckit
mcm love is hurt
tp twitter update yg biasa2,
mcm.. yay aku suke bcinta nan de.
cm gitu ugh .

Nurathifah says:
aku mls nk bertwitter
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
asl?? aku nk tawu kau nga watpe sume
=((
Nurathifah says:
hahaah. memang tu ke fungsi twitter
kk mulai esok aku akan cube didik diri utk update k utk kau
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ye saye
yay!!!!!
aku cume nk tawu ape kwn2 aku bwat
jd tkdlh rs jauh sgt

hahaha! korg make sure rajinkn diri update status dkat twitter eh!! aku pegang janji2 korg.

pakcik tk bertauliah!

2010-03-06T10:54:00.003+08:00

driver shuttle bus ni sumpah mengundang kemarahan aku. adake de stop dkat tepi road and baca suratkhabar. pdhl ada passengers dkat dlm tgh kelam kabut pergi kuliah. sungguh tk lucu de boleh dgn santai baca suratkhabar dan suruh kte org tunggu de habis baca baru die drive alek. ni aku dh amek gmbr de, aku harap2 president malaysia ke paling tidaklh polis malaysia ke baca blog aku. ahaha! tinggi cita2 aku nk drg bc blog aku. jgn bace je, amek tindakan lh! geram sae.

jangan beri aku puisi cinta.

2010-03-02T19:41:00.001+08:00

aku tak percaya pada penyair

tak juga pujangga

yang aku ingin percaya hanya cintamu.

ya Allah, help me to cease this fear

2010-02-25T15:09:00.009+08:00

Ailurophobia is different from a dislike of cats, as it implies fear rather than loathing or a desire to harm. Symptoms of Ailurophobia, which occur in the presence of a cat, may include:

•Intense fear
•Sweating
•Heart palpitations
•Nausea
•Dry mouth
•Tightness in the throat or chest

An Ailurophobe may also have negative beliefs about cats, viewing them as sadistic or sneaky. In extreme cases, the phobic individual will not even be able to leave the house for fear of encountering a cat, and even seeing a cat on television or in movie may induce anxiety symptoms.

I have a deep fear of cats, I go into panic and fear when i see one, even now Im shaking trememdously because ive just seen Someone bringing black cat in my room, its a horrible thing and people dont understand why im so afraid of cats, i dont understand too but i feel Cats are terrifying creatures.

black cat, pls be good!

2010-02-25T01:11:00.003+08:00

HEART ATTACK!

tk pnah2 ada kucing btenggek dpn bilik. nari tk psl2 de ziarah aku. aku ni dhlh tk berapa 'click' nan kucing, skali dtg mak segala kucing. tu haa gmbr de,dipetik oleh amalina. pls lh. ddk lh bilik lain bkn bilik aku. pny azab aku nk gosok gigi cuci muka sume. tkkn aku nk gosok gigi cuci muke dlm bilik. tk ke blecak bilik aku?ahah! mule2 nmpk kucing kaler putih nga korek tong sampah, aku pon patah alek. tk jd nk g tandas. skali lps 13 mins tgk kucing hitam lak nga mkn bungkusan nasi yg baru aku buang td. menyesal aku buang dkat tongsampah koridor aku, tahu aku buang dkat University lain. jd kucing hitam tu tk g tongsampah aku! ahah aku dh mepek. k skrg aku tgh pk klw matahari dh terbit kucing tu masih ada, dgn segala hormat aku tukar bilik. ddk bumbung. jd kucing tk boleh naik. ahah. k lg mepek. dhlh pls lh. jgn nk ngeow ngeow, aku fhm kau lapar cing (nama manja) tp masalahnye aku tkd simpan makanan kucing. aku kesian tgk kau lapar, tp masalahnye aku pon lapar. aahah mcm no link! k skrg aku tgh pk klw tgh malam aku rs nk tkencing ape aku perlu bwat? klw tahan tkt buahsir.*pardon me for the wrong spelling* klw
buang je tkt buahmadam pulak. ahaha! mepeknye aku!! kn skrg dh nk dkat 2 pg susah nk tdo psl pikiran kucing hitam pny psl! dhlh. bye. tgk cermin lg baik.

let us not hate others

2010-02-24T11:29:00.001+08:00

I just want us to get united and be One.. Is it too much to be asked for?

" واعتصموا بحبل الله جميعًا ولا تفرّقوا "
"dan berpegang teguhlah kamu dengan tali ALLAH (agama Islam) dan jangan berpecah belah…"

-Al’imran; 103-

the jokes,the teasings,the smiles,the laughters.

2010-02-22T17:01:00.003+08:00

thankyou for being the sunshine for every cloudy day of mine.

no time, no time

2010-02-20T01:14:00.001+08:00

you know what i feel like doing right now?

i wanna go shopping,get a new dress,play uno with my sisters,go out with my darlings to some cool place,take a million photos and have a great time.

but noooo,ive got no time to do all that.because why?

because I DH NK ALEK UM! mummy!!! =((

i need you.

2010-02-14T23:16:00.001+08:00

when missing gets unbearable,
when loneliness gets unstoppable.

i feel like flying to where you are,
so we can catch up like old times.
i feel like flying to where you are,
so i can tell you a lot about my new times.
i feel like flying to where you are,
so i can tell you how much i misses you.
i feel like flying to where you are,
so you know just how much i need you.
i definitely miss your lectures,
smiles, sounds and laughter.
advices, tears and nonsense.
much time, i do wonder whether we all have change.
i guess, in time, we all do.
Life's pretty much not the same without you

gah!!

2010-02-14T16:14:00.000+08:00

Thisis frustrating. i am so annoyed with my body. lower it down to 37 degrees please?

aktiviti sihat di UM

2010-02-11T13:56:00.004+08:00

suke sgt2 main badminton walaupon blm terror mane.

suke jog dkat sini walaopon penat tahap cungap2!

lawa tk swimmg suit nie?;) suke sgt swim. suke masukkn kepala dkat air
suke bile kaki ter'float' sndr.

yay! hari ni pulang! mak abah aisyah nur, tunggu kakak kamu yar. muah muah.

sakit.

2010-02-09T10:34:00.003+08:00

tknk sakit lg. cukup lh minggu lps sakit mcm nenek bongkok 3. tknk g hospital lg. tknk susahkn kawan2 lg. tknk habiskn airmata fathimah lg. tknk kena inject lg. sakit woo. tknk telantar atas katil lg. tknk bibir and mata merah! tknk susahkn fazilah tk tdo satu mlm. tknk susahkn jamila tpaksa tuam ice dkat badan dahi saya. tknk susahkn amalina and sya kassim kena belikn cooling pax and airbadak. ubat maha byk ok! pdhl yg sakit sorg. korg beli berbotol2! ahaha. tknk susahkn fyra kena lap airmata baby nie. tknk bwat nana tpaksa tdo tk lena tunggu djah alek hospital. terimakasih byk2 korg. ;)

harap2 lh sakit minggu lps tu sakit utk tiga tahun. =D

tp ape2pon nw saya dh kuat sekuat kuat... ape tiqa?? sekuat ibrahim sihat. pandai pon de. ahaha. randomnye aku masukkn nama tiqa.

prohibited

2010-01-30T19:33:00.003+08:00

Things i should stop doing in Uni Malaya ;

- wasting money on cabfares

- thinking too much on unnecessary stuff

- sleeping too late

- bathing in the late afternoon instead of in the morning

- taking panadols to stop headache

- talking and shouting too much until sore throat

hais

2010-01-30T14:10:00.004+08:00

I dont know why you keep complaining about your life being lonely, worst etc, instead of trying to adapt yourself to the current situation. Do you think I want this to happen?! I would travel back to those days too. but I also know that complaining wont take us anywhere except that you have to find a way to adapt yourself.

saini saini~~

2010-01-29T17:26:00.002+08:00

rindu muke tengek saini. makin tengek makin kak ijah nk amek gmbr.

rindu saini tdo sebelah kak ijah even saini tak layan kakak
and asek main psp.

kakak tahu saini dh stat skola, selamat berjuang eh guru2 saini. harap mereka diberi kesabaran yang secukupnya dlm mendidik saini. ahahah. nnt kakak alek kte btentang mata k syg. rindu dia lh! muah muah.

she's my short partner. ahaha. ;)

2010-01-29T16:53:00.004+08:00

balik je bilik, buka pintu, tgk atas lappy ada benda putih dibungkus. pk bunga dari jejaka kacak manakn, skali bukak, rupanya apple diselimuti tissue. pelik! bile masa lak ada doc masuk bilik aku letak apple. aku fhmlh slogan an apple a day keeps a doctor away. pastu tarik kerusi je. ada bungkusan nasi. sejak bilik makcik cafe masuk bilik aku. rupe-rupenyee kerja kawan aku yg sgt comel. nk mntk maaf pki mulut mungkin tkt aku tk layan. jadi de belikn lh aku indo mee. tadaaa..

nasib apple tu tk retak kn screen lappy aku. ahaha.

you're forgiven dear. muah.

tadaaa! tkyh pergi cafe. dh tsedia mknan atas meja.

utk kamu, walaupon aku marah mcm mana skalipon dgn kamu, walaupon aku merepek mcm mana skalipon dgn kamu, walaupon aku tk layan mcm mana skalipon dgn kamu, aku tetap buahhati kamu kn? ahaha.

ok kamu, cpt pulang. nnt kte story manyak2 k. ;)

university life

2010-01-28T15:05:00.002+08:00

Being in a University for nearly a year made me realise that life gets too hectic. we're always rushing to get into lectures, get notes, copy notes and catch up with our studies.

Almost everywhere i go, i can see ppl mugging which makes me sick cause i know i can never be like them mugging that hard. and now i do agree with what ppl say, you can find your true friends only in high school. We're all so busy in Uni that its hard to really hang out with friends.

Another reason is that, although we can be in the same University, we will hardly meet up with that different courses we're in. we practically have to move from one place to another for every lesson or lectures.

lectures are practically rushing through the topics, its making me want to shout, "PELAN2 CKIT LH. LOST TAWU TK!"

k enough. lets go study!!

pls layankan aku?ahahah!

2010-01-20T16:54:00.001+08:00

1. Ketawa orang kaya: Muahahhaahaha
2. Ketawa terbahak-bahak: Hark hark hark
3. Ketawa kebaratan: Ha ha ha ha ha
4. Ketawa sambil tutup mulut: Hi hi hi hi hi
5. Ketawa berdekah-dekah: Kah kah kah kah
6. Ketawa pontianak: Kih kih kih kih
7. Ketawa eksyen: Ek ek ek ek ek
8. Gelak besar: Muahhaaaaa *ketawa jin/setan*
9. Ketawa panjang: Ha ha ha ha ha ha * ambil nafas* ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
10. Ketawa orang sakit: Kih kih kih kih kih *cough* kih kih kih kih
11. Ketawa maut: Kih kih kih kih kih kih kih kih *kiok..............Neno, neno, neno (Bunyi ambulan)
12. Ketawa kuat: LOL
13. Ketawa bergolek-golek: LOLROTFL
14. Ketawakan dia: He he he he he
15. Kekkekekekek = ek ek ek ek ek (cuma salah ejaan)
16. ahakz = ketawa jimat cermat
17. hahahaahahhaaaaaaampppppppeeeeeeeehhhhhhhh = ketawa tak ikhlas
18. heheh - hampir-hampir ketawa
19. kui kui kui - ketawa sambil batuk
20. hik hik hik - ketawa dalam mabuk
21. hek hek hek - ketawa ngada-ngada.
22. wakakakkakaka - ketawa berguling-guling cam tenggiling dalam piring
23. eh heh - ketawa sindir.
24. huargh huargh huargh!!! - ketawa sambil bermain ngan benda-benda tajam. (ketawa brutal)
25. ngee ngee ngee - ketawa sengih
26. kwah kwah kwaaahhhh kwahhhhh - Ketawa sambil lewa
27. ketawa perli : ahe ahe ahe ahe....
28. ketawa tapi tknak ketawa : kuikuikuikui.

rumahku, raya kami.

2010-01-20T01:43:00.003+08:00

aku sll spoiler ugh. dh cantik2 gmbr enth hape enth aku

g ketawa bahak2.

ah! baru manis. ;)

korg rindu tkkk nk dtg rumah kite?

ahahaha.

klw tk rindu rumah kte, rindu kte pon dh memadai.

jaga diri k korg. rindu sgt2.

=))

2010-01-19T12:44:00.001+08:00

I must learn to love the fool in me, the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.

— Theodore Isaac Rubin

abah ijah. ;)

2010-01-17T18:31:00.001+08:00

pada namaku ada namanya.
dalam hatiku ada dirinya.
;)

utt yg merepek!

2010-01-15T16:46:00.004+08:00

- Nurathifah says:
aku ade stalker bru
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
cmme tawu?
de blg ke, hi im ur stalker?
- Nurathifah says:
dr gerak ggeri de ah
asek ikut aku je
stalk setiap pergerakan aku
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
mksd?
ikut cmne?
blog ke atau ape
- Nurathifah says:
ikut ah.
tahu aku online. aku blaja. aku tdo
sume ah
aku dh lame kenal de
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
kau kenal de sape?
sape?
- Nurathifah says:
tp ntah lately bru de stalk
bru rs aku penting kot dlm hidup de
kau kenal de
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
YELH!! sape name de??
- Nurathifah says:
LULU
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
luklu?
- Nurathifah says:
LULU LA . LULU KUCING AKU
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
KEPALA OTAK KO!!
MCM SENGAJA NK KENAKN AKU JE!
- Nurathifah says:
AHAHAH. TP SERIOUS AH
dr smlm oi
aku masok de masok
aku klua de klua
td mlm aku tdo.. aku sadar de tgh usap2 rmbut aku
cium2

aku faham kau stress nk exam. tp jangan mainkn perasaan aku ugh. ahaha. muah.

better in time

2010-01-15T14:45:00.002+08:00

We will get better in time. I know you are not feeling good about this either. :)

try me!

2010-01-14T14:30:00.002+08:00

IF YOU CLAIM THAT IM SELFISH, THAN I'LL PROVE IT TO YOU.

PLEASE STOP BLAMING ME FOR BEING SELFISH

AS I SUPPOSE THAT EVERYONE IS.

this is life

2010-01-14T14:11:00.000+08:00

How can something that’s supposed to be wrong feel so right?
How can something so right feel so wrong?

;)

2010-01-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

"djah. kte rindu bbual dgn awk. jaga diri jaga iman k"

"mxg awk btol2 buat kte tsenyum. thanks wk. rindu awk juga"

"kdg2 bila berjauhan ada ke kenangan terimbas. awk tgh bermasalah ke? moga tlerai kekusutan dihati awak klw ada k?

"masalah tu biasa je wk. doakan kte kuat k?"

"awk pon doakan kte bertahan k?"

saat-saat hati ingin menangis,

ada saja yang membuat aku tersenyum.

terima kasih Ya Allah.

you've crossed the line.

2010-01-09T02:50:00.003+08:00

if you happen to be a huge irritant and one who cannot make up ur freaking mind about what you want and keep relying on someone else then i suggest you to stay away from me. bcause i swear right now, i cannot tolerate this kind of people. dont ask me why. dont ask.

you're real.

2010-01-09T01:42:00.003+08:00

nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
ehk !
kau tau tak ?!
aku kan tuary da beli flutes 2 kotak utk kau
nak pass pat bdk2 um yg dtg sini
skali aku telupe nak kasi
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
dh alasan! alasan tkhabis2!
mcm lh aku tk tawu yg kau sgj nk jeles kn aku!!
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
tak , aku tak typu
aku nak typu watpe
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble said (1:34 AM):
mana tawu nk jeleskn aku. sbb dkat sgpore tk choc tu
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
aku nie muke penipu ke
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tklh. muke tk.lidah je.
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
wah wah
Bkn main kau eh
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
kasar nah ke bahasa aku? ahahah!
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
tak kasar bhs kau
tgn kau je kasar
laju type pat kutuk2
kau tgh watpe ?
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble said (1:37 AM):
tgh daftar sub.
kau?
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
ouh
tak tydo lagy pe , dh kul rape sae
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble said (1:39 AM):
aku tgh jaga rumah. tkt pencuri masuk
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
ngengade
bknnye ad emas pat umah
nak lemas aku
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
tkd emas pon, yg ada puteri.

untuk julung-julung kali nye kau sweet.

wlupon aku tk nmpk mana choc nye,

tp aku tahu kau ada niat nk belikan aku.

ahahaha.

you're real

2010-01-08T14:42:00.001+08:00

Thankyou for sticking with me through the year,

for all the laughters and smiles.

Thanks love. ;)

si anak pak abu.

2010-01-03T14:15:00.001+08:00

Zafyrah says:
kau kt simei ke kt KL???
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
kl syg
ahahah
asl?
Zafyrah says:
ala tk best hahah igt nk ajak kua makan aku lapa gile mel tk jwb sms
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
ko suke bwat aku geram!! suke tao.
bile aku dkat simei satu hek satu hok pon tkdo
bile aku alek krg plan g stadium bukit jalil lh g jalan ampas lh
Zafyrah says:
HAHAHHA tipu jalan ampas wtpe
abe ko pon tk menanyeee
aku pun tga bosan mak bapak tkde
lapa gile tahap bole makan dua kerbau buas
%sitikhadijah% colour my life with the chaos of trouble says:
HAHAHAHAH

sumpahh mepek! dua kerbau buas ko! ahahahah! ko sungguh lucu lh fyra. aku rindu sama kamu! muah.

lets just fake it with a smile and pretend that im not affected at all.

2010-01-03T13:02:00.002+08:00

how now cow row wow yow

i dont know what im feeling

and it's really frustrating.

i believe that once again God is testing me.

im not proud of having those negative thoughts and feelings in me.

2009-12-29T01:24:00.002+08:00

I know i shouldnt be all upset especially about the simplest thing.
but how?
Im only a human.

my tutee.

2009-12-27T15:00:00.003+08:00

hi kak khadijah!!!!

farah here!!!!

we miss you lots!!!

when are we gonna c u again???

PLEASE teach us next year!!!!

nk nangis bole? i swear im misiing u girls.

study hard k syg.

u'll always be in my du'a.

muah.

andai hati sepetak tanah, pasti terbentuk rekahan yang banyak.

2009-12-26T03:19:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah,

sekiranya ditakdirkan dia bukan hakku,

bawalah dia jatuh dari pandangan hati ini,

luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan,

berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menolak bayangnya jauh ke dada langit,

pasrahkanlah daku dengan takdirmu,

sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan adalah yang terbaik untukku.

Ya Allah,

kiranya yang aku tanggung penuh luka ini adalah sesuatu yang sia-sia disismu,

lenyapkanlah, padamkanlah.

Namun, kiranya rasa kasihku ini adalah dalam redhaMu,

mekarkanlah selalu meskipun ku harus bertarung antara bahagia dan derita,

aku lemah ...

lemah daripada setitis embun,

tiada kekuatan menghadap malam yang gelap sepi dan dingin,

tiada kekuatan untuk menanti meski ada kesetiaan dihati,

semuanya kerana gelap malam yang terlalu pekat!

Ya Allah,

wajahku yang sebenarnya yang sedang menangis,

itulah wajahku yang sebenar kerana itulah yang kau ciptakan,

maka dalam selemah dan sehina mana pun diriku ini,

tunjukkanlaj jalan yang benar buat ku lalui agar sampai kepadaMu bukan dalam keadaan pilu.

Ya Allah,

apakah harus ku hadapai hidup ini dengan

senyuman sedangkan hatiku yang sebenar

adalah dalam tangisan...

atau aku perlu zahirkan pada dunia akan

wajahku yang sebenar dengan menampakkan

tangisan pada wajahku,

begitukah Ya Allah ?

dear cousin, pls bring me along next time.

2009-12-25T14:58:00.004+08:00

i want this. i want this. i want this. i want this. *ulang sampai tertidur*

ahahah! ok2. cousinku, farhana. ko nekstaim naik ajak aku eh.

law tk, putus hubungan kekeluargaan kte. ahaha.

serious sae, abseilling, flying fox bnd2 yg agak memutuskn nyawa sume sgt menyeronokkn.

tu sume aku dh try. skrg nk terbang tinggi2 smpi angkasa lak. pls?